Today was my last day of work! I have really been looking forward to this day. Now that it is here I have such mixed emotions!
I am so happy to have some time to relax and finish preparing for the baby's arrival. I have not been sleeping well at night, so I have been tired and by the end of the work day, I need a nap:) But, with the being said , it was sad to leave today. I set my out of office reply for my email and my phone. I got everything set up for my patients and the clinical fellow that I have been training! My boss, who is also my friend, gave me a hug and said 'good luck, everything will be perfect' and I got all teary! I think part of it is that I have worked so hard to get my career to where it is and have invested a lot of time and energy into my current office. I also love the people that I work with and will miss having my little work community surrounding me. I know that I am going to be back at work in a few months and my career is not ending, but it feels weird. I think that it really hit me that in about two weeks we are going to have a baby! Wow!! News flash...we are having a baby! Life if changing! It is going to be an amazing change - but there are so many unknowns that it is hard to know what to expect! I guess I just have to roll with the punches and see what happens.
I had my 38 week appointment today. My midwife asked me how I have been feeling and I was telling her about the significant amount of pressure I feel down on my pelvis by the end of the day. She said it was good. After walking the dog, I feel it the most. She said is was good and I should keep walking. She said the head is 'way down there'....so he is in good position. She coached me on the signs of when to call the hospital - if I have a really bad headache and do not feel well - meaning my blood pressure may be high, if my water breaks, or I am having regular, painful contractions. I actually had a braxton-hicks (a practice) contraction while I was laying on the table today. It was good to have it while she was there because I was not sure if it was the baby moving and stretching or a contraction. Now I know. She said there will be no mistaking when I am having real contractions....At this point, she said there is no predicting when the baby will come. God only knows!
My next appointment is on my due date (01/20). At that point she will examine me to see how things are going. They will let me go one week overdue and then do an ultrasound and monitor the baby and decide where to go from there. Only time will tell what is going to happen...I will keep you all posted!
I remember the last day of work. It was really emotional for me too. Enjoy your baby free time off. Sleep in, go shopping, have lunch with friends. Believe it or not, once the baby comes and your staring at the same four walls everyday, all day, you are going to be jealous of Todd when he goes to work and gets to be a real person for the day.
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